I can't talk to anyone in particular about this one, but I can write about my frustration. I wish I could write to him, but it's so hard to discuss such a sensitive topic with him. It's like a pink elephant or whatever that I feel I have to tip-toe around. When I ask, he says I'm treating him like a 12 year old, micromanaging him. I'm not. Asking "what did you say you needed to do tomorrow?" is NOT patronizing. He tells me to open up and tell him my problems and let him help me, but he doesn't do the same. What kind of relationship is this? Is this some kind of pride thing where the man must support his woman and not the other way around? WHY DOESN'T HE EVER LET ME HELP?! More importantly, why doesn't he act right away? It's so tiring for me to dance around this problem and even more tiring for him to have it... then why prolong the experience? "I'll get to it when I do." It's like that leaky faucet that a husband promises to fix but never does. I wish I didn't cry so much so that my tears would actually mean something to him. THIS - this is a problem that can be fixed... SO FIX IT!!
he hides his resume.
he hides his plan.
he hides what he's done.
he REFUSES help from me.
Does he think I'm incompetent or something? Does he feel I'm stupid? Is it that he feels that seeking my advice is shameful? What the HELL is it?!?!?!? Anyone, answer me!
he lacks a sense of URGENCY until he is put on a timeline and it makes him angry, agitated, and causes him to lash out at me. I can be understanding to a limit, but when I'm at the butt end of this, isn't it NATURAL to figure out what's wrong and to STOP the problem? Am I the crazy one? what the HELL?!?!?!?!?!
I'M SO FCKING SAD. I WISH I HAD SOMEONE TO TALK TO!
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